Tears for the Lost Children
May 22, 2013
For the past three days, I, like all of you, have been haunted, mesmerized, stunned, and emotionally drained by images of the tornadoes that came stalking across an Oklahoma landscape like that a grim reaper in a grim sky.
A town gone.
But most of all, I grieve for the lost children.
I know the lost children.
I grew up in a community of lost children.
In the second grade, I walked for the first time down the hallways of New London elementary school in the midst of the East Texas oilfield.
A new school.
A modern school.
It was, everyone swore, the finest school in Texas.
It was the school that oil and gas built.
It had been the school that oil and gas destroyed.
And I walked among the memories of lost children.
Their names were still mentioned in whispers.
Families still wept at their graves.
No one had forgot .
No one even tried.
It had been a chilled and overcast March afternoon in 1937. Children were laughing and ending another school day. Their books were stacked on their desks. Some had already begun lining up in the hallway.
The clock on the wall said three-thirty.
Five minutes more and the bell would ring.
Five minutes more and they would be on their way home.
The clock never reached three thirty-five.
No one knew or could have known about natural gas from the oilfield gathering beneath the basement. Gas had no odor. Gas was the silent killer.
No one ever knew what triggered the spark.
The sky was dark.
The rain was gently falling.
Every eye was on the clock.
And the world came to an end.
New London school exploded, and, as one newspaper correspondent would write: This small East Texas town of New London lost a generation.
Almost three hundred would die.
They and their teachers lay in the rubble of broken bricks and concrete blocks, desks and books and steel girders ripped apart and twisted like ribbons of death.
There were screams.
And some moans.
Then silence fell upon the ruins of a school.
The only noise anyone heard were the prayers of mothers, the curses of oilfield roughnecks, and the gently falling of the rain.
My father worked in the oilfield. He was close. The oilfield wasn’t that big.
My mother was a waitress in a small café just down in the road in Turnertown.
They – as did hundreds of others – rushed madly to the scene.
My father tore through bricks and twisted metal until his gloves had been ripped off and both hands were bleeding.
He did not leave.
No one left.
My father never talked about it.
My mother did, but not often.
Some parents drove to the pile of rubble. Fathers raced from their jobs. Mothers ran from their homes.
They searched all afternoon.
And all night.
Searching for the living.
And, after a while, just searching.
They walked down the hallways of hospitals.
They walked through the makeshift morgues in warehouses and gymnasiums.
Row after row of blankets.
Row after row, the blankets covered the tiny bodies.
They were searching for the lost children.
There were so many of them.
They feared they would find their child, or children.
Then they feared they wouldn’t.
My mother held one little lady most of the night. Both of them were on their knees in field of brick mortar and mud.
Her face was white, drained of all blood and emotion.
She had cried until there were no tears left.
Her heart had become part of the rubble around her.
Over and over, she kept saying, “It’s so sad.”
“My boy’s here,” the little lady said.
Mother held her tighter.
“He’s seven,” the little lady said.
Mother shed her last tear.
“It’s so sad,” the little lady said again. “He’s had to lie all night in the rain.”
He was among them then.
He still is.
Just a name belonging to one of the lost children.
My heart breaks for them all, then and now, in New London and Moore, Oklahoma. We will never know the impact they might have made upon the world. We only know the impact they made upon our lives on a night they lay in the rain.