Toni’s Blues by Jacqueline Rainey
Beautifully written and powerful novel, which I recommend to men and women of all ages as it challenges our traditional and simple idea of love.
In every woman’s heart there is a place for a special man; the key is finding our soul mate in this world. Toni was always in search of love, but somehow she kept choosing the wrong men.
Toni is a beautiful songwriter who has been very successful at writing love songs, but finds herself at one of the lowest points in her life because of her own unsuccessful search for love. This last abusive relationship has stripped her of her remaining self-esteem and the sense of who she is as a woman. She finds herself on the floor, remembering everything she has allowed this man to take from her, including her freedom.
While she is on the floor, Toni starts to evaluate her life and her choices in men. So begins her journey of redemption and the essence of Toni’s Blues. “How hard is it to recognize a fallen woman not on the floor? Shouldn’t it be obvious as if to be falling in slow motion, even her tears will fall slowly, but her cries won’t be soft?
Every piece of her touched and bruised; heart tender to the touch. Here I sit, bruised pieces of me.” Love can truly make us blind to the reality that there never really was any love there to begin with.
About the Jacqueline Rainey:
Jacqueline Rainey began writing poetry at the age of eleven when she discovered her love of music and the written verse. She views herself as an emotional writer, drawing inspiration from her own life experiences using them as the foundation for her stories.
She credits her over active imagination to her ability to turn a daydream into a full-blown story line, mixing in bits and pieces of her own life and expanding on them.
Jacqueline believes that these are the signs of the times with evil creeping in and at time slipping in under the radar of some, and quickly recognized for what it is by others and influencing the masses to turn to faith and seek God or choosing other beliefs stirring up a battle of good and evil.
Review by Garry Kay:
When she consoles her jilted child, a mother will always tell you “better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.” Maybe.
Many years ago, I loved and lost. It was painful. It was more emotional pain than I thought anyone could bear. It was all-consuming and the feeling off loss leaves you ruined and spiritually flaccid. Time stops. The word “hope” climbs out of the dictionary, packs its bags and walks away. But I was lucky. I had been loved. I have loved again.
The picture painted by Jacqueline Rainey in Toni’s Blues is on a completely different level of hurt. Toni has been used and abused by a string of men. She loved them all. None of them returned the love she craved so badly. Instead they beat her and left her in a pool of her owns tears. A sorry tale that echoes the same trauma her mother had faced many times.
Toni’s Blues is a harrowing journey from the depths of despair to a better place. It is told with the intimacy of somebody who surely must have felt the same anguish. It’s too real. The reader shares Toni’s every moment as she struggles through the torment.
Jacqueline’s skillful prose drags the reader into Toni’s ordeal. “When the world outside my window shuts down and finds me sitting side by side with my fears.” And clever literary ideas keep you firmly in the room with our heroine as she moves forward. “I looked up from the floor and watched as the words began to slowly peel from the wall and float off and fall upon me like a blanket.”
Beautifully written and powerful novel, which I recommend to men and women of all ages as it challenges our traditional and simple idea of love. If our mothers read the book, maybe they will change their words of advice “better to have been loved and lost, than to have never been loved at all.”