My Prison without Bars by Taylor Evan Fulks
Taylor Evan Fulks
My Prison Without Bars is one of those books that will change your life. The courage this woman has is beyond inspiring.
MY PRISON WITHOUT BARS is a courageous and harrowing journey through the catacombs of hell, from the mind and voice of a little girl, living with her own monster underneath her bed.
Written in first person, this novel is not a memoir, but more a psychological thriller based on true events; chronicling one woman’s attempt to claw her way out of the darkness of Child Sexual Abuse, while struggling to find normal, in a not-so-normal world.
It is poignant, dark and graphic; not for the faint of heart.
From Taylor Evan Fulks:
Have you ever lived with a shameful secret? Afraid that someone or something would ‘rat’ you out…expose your demons for the entire world to see? Have you ever been in so much darkness that you didn’t know how to find the light?
If so, then you’ll no doubt identify with Taylor’s story; a saga much like Sapphire’s Push, that became the Academy Award-winning movie, Precious.
My Prison Without Bars is a poignant, yet dark account of one woman’s struggle to find “normal,” as well as light and hope along her journey.
I wrote this novel in first person, from the mind, body, and heart of a child. I didn’t want to shock or be grotesque…I wanted people to truly know the permanent damage that is inflicted, to know the depths of fear and self-loathing, and to really feel through the experiences of an abused child.
My goal was to exorcise my demons, gain some sense of self-esteem, heal myself, and finally tell my dirty little secret with full disclosure, while giving the reader full access to my heart. Oddly, I didn’t find the outcomes I expected…absolution, understanding, and self-forgiveness. But I did find something I didn’t expect…Acceptance.
My life is what it is. My experiences happened in the past. I don’t live there anymore. I can choose to be angry and ashamed for the rest of my life, or I can accept my life for what it’s been, what it is now, and move toward the light…and who knows, maybe help someone else along the way. Hence, my mission statement: The rest of my life will be the best of my life. It’s not about my destination…it’s about the journey that gets me there.
Review by Melissa:
My Prison Without Bars is a hell of a read. The breath taking story telling of Taylor Evan Fulks childhood experiences is not for the feint hearted. I was forced to drop everything and simply read every single word carefully and deliberately. What happened to Taylor is horrifying and its really challenging to read the details of her experiences. And just when you think you can’t take anymore, you find you can, you must, you have to. There’s a girl in this story who needs you to feel for her and fight for her because no one else did.
So if you want to or need to know what it’s really like to survive childhood sexual abuse, read it. My Prison Without Bars is one of those books that will change your life. The courage this woman has is beyond inspiring.
Review by S. Edwards:
My Prison with out Bars is a tough read….don’t get me wrong, it’s beautifully writen, but the subject matter is heart breaking. The ache in my heart for the little girl Taylor will not go away. I just wanted to swoop in and take her away from all of her horrors.
This book reminds us all of the abuses inflicted up children (both girls and boys) not only around the world but in our great nation. We need to be more observant of what is going on around us, and if we suspect abuse we need to report it, not turn a blind eye. We also need to make sure that children know that it is ok to speak up and that these acts are not acceptable behavior.
It is truly amazing that someone can survive these years and years of abuse and still turn out to be a productive member of society, wife and loving mother. It shows true character. I hope this book will inspire others and it shows that just becasue you were abused doesn’t mean you will turn out to be an abuser.
Bravo To Taylor Fulks for being able to open her soul to us and share her innermost secrets and demons, you are an amazing lady!